Update about me..

Okie, for those who i have fooled long enough, i have passed my driving test!! 6 points!! Hahaz... And i DID not wear short skirt or some revealing wear okie.. Hahaz!!

Haiz, band has been bad for me so far.. I mean, i do enjoy going back, teaching the juniors, hanging out with the alumni.. But the trumpet juniors has been in some way killing me..

I do not ask for rewards, i do not need you guys to thank me and treat me like some saint... All i want is to see you guys put in the effort to improve, to strive for the better.. Things like being keen to learn, remembering things that are taught, COMING for band practices and so much more.. I am not paid to come back, when i come back i am not able to work and i will not see you guys at SYF Indoor 2009 cause i will not be in Singapore.. But i want to help you all because i know that it will benefit you people in some way...

Today i went back, asked you all a VERY simple question.. Why do you come for band? The answers i got were stunning:
1) Don't know
2) Cause no choice, it is my cca
3) Got interest in music
4) Like to play the band music
5) Can learn music

The ironic part is those who said they got interest in band, their attendance is HORRIBLE... I mean, if you REALLY LOVE band, you would come right?! Its like why i come back? Because of the passion i have, the passion to teach you guys, to hear band music, to see you all improve and make it in life..

Then again, Charity said something really wise to me.. Maybe because you hold too much an expectation of them, thats why you get more disapponted.. Maybe i really have been too harsh on them, maybe i am the one who cannot teach well, maybe the main problem lies in me... Maybe i should just not come back and help since i am not helping them in any way.. I am tired and disappointed..

Everytime i go back for band, its like tearing up a wound that has not healed once again... But i still do it over and over again, because I JUST WANT TO SEE YOU GUYS MAKE IT IN LIFE...